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  The Gum Thief

  BY THE SAME AUTHOR

  FICTION

  Generation X

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  Life After God

  Microserfs

  Girlfriend in a Coma

  Miss Wyoming All Families Are Psychotic

  Hey Nostradamus!

  Eleanor Rigby

  JPod

  NON-FICTION

  Polaroids from the Dead

  City of Glass

  Souvenir of Canada

  Souvenir of Canada 2

  Terry

  Douglas Coupland

  The Gum Thief

  BLOOMSBURY

  First published in Great Britain 2007

  Copyright © 2007 by Douglas Coupland

  The moral right of the author has been asserted

  This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents, either are the product of the author's imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or locales is entirely

  coincidental.

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  Q: Brother; are you headed home?

  A: Brother, aren't we always headed home?

  -Question used by Masons to identify themselves among strangers

  Roger

  A few years ago it dawned on me that everybody past a certain age-regardless of how they look on the outside pretty much constantly dreams of being able to escape from their lives. They don't want to be who they are any more. They want out. This list includes Thurston Howell the Third, Ann-Margret, the cast members of Rent, Vaclav Havel, space shuttle astronauts and Snuffleupagus. It's universal.

  Do you want out? Do you often wish you could be somebody, anybody, other than who you are-the you who holds a job and feeds a family-the you who keeps a relatively okay place to live and who still tries to keep your friendships alive? In other words, the you who's going to remain pretty much the same until the casket?

  There's nothing wrong with me being me, or with you being you. And in the end, life's pretty tolerable, isn't it? Oh, I'll get by. We all say that. Don't worry about me. Maybe I'll get drunk and go shopping on eBay at eleven at night, and maybe I'll buy all kinds of crazy crap I won't remember I bid on the next morning, like a ten-pound bag of mixed coins from around the world or a bootleg tape of Joni Mitchell performing at the Calgary Saddle dome in 1981.

  I used the phrase "a certain age." What I mean by this is the age people are in their heads. It's usually thirty to thirty-four. Nobody is forty in their head. When it comes to your internal age, chin wattles and relentless liver spots mean nothing.

  In my mind, I'm always thirty-two. In my mind, I'm drinking sangria beachside in Waikiki; Kristal from Bakersfield is flirting with me, while Joan, who has yet to have our two kids, is up in our hotel room fetching a pair of sunglasses that don't dig into her ears as much. By dinnertime, I'm going to have a mild sunburn, and when I return home from that holiday, I'll have a $5K salary bonus and an upgraded computer system waiting for me at my office. And if I dropped fifteen pounds and changed gears from sunburn to suntan, I could look halfway okay. Not even okay: hot.

  Do I sound regretful?

  Okay, maybe a bit.

  Okay, let's face it-I'm king of the exit interview. And Joan was a saint. My curse is that I'd rather be in pain than be wrong.

  I'm sad at having flubbed the few chances I had to make bold strokes in life. I'm learning to cope with the fact that it was both my laziness and my useless personal moral code that cheated me out of seizing new opportunities. Listen to me: flubbed chances and missed opportunities: I gloss past them both in almost the same breath. But there was no gloss when it was all coming down. It's taken me what-five years?-to simply get used to the idea that I've blown things. I'm grieving, grieving hard-core. The best part of my life is gone, and what remains is whizzing past so quickly I feel like I'm Krazy-Glue'ed onto a mechanical bull of a time machine.

  I can't even escape in my dreams. My dreams used to be insulated by pink fibreglass, but maybe two jobs ago my sense of failure ripped a hole through the insulation and began wrecking them. I dreamed it was that Monday afternoon in the 1990s when my high school buddy turned vampire stockbroker, Lars, phoned me a week after my mother's funeral-a week!-and told me to put everything and anything I might have inherited into Microsoft stock. I told him our friendship was over. I told him he was a parasite. And if Microsoft had sunk into the earth's crust and vanished, I might have actually forgiven Lars, but that didn't happen. Their sack-of-shit operating system conquered the planet, and my $100,000 inheritance from my mother, put into Microsoft, would currently be worth a smidge over $13 million.

  I get the Microsoft dream about once a week now.

  But okay, there's some good stuff in my life. I love my spaniel, Wayne, and he loves me. What a name for a dog, Wayne-like he's my accountant. The thing is, dogs only hear vowels. It's a fact. When I call Wayne in for the night, he doesn't hear the W or the N. I could simply yell out Ayyyyyyyyyy and he'd still show up. For that matter, I· suppose I could also simply yell out Paaaaiiiiiiiiiiiin and he'd show up. At my last job, I told Mindy the comptroller how much I loved Wayne, and you know what she said to me? She said, "Dogs are like people, except you can legally kill dogs if they bug you." Which makes you wonder-one household in three has a dog in it, but all they are (from the Mindy perspective) is semi-disposable family members. We need to have laws to make killing dogs illegal. But what about cats? Okay, cats, too. What about snakes? Or sea monkeys?

  I draw the line at sea monkeys. I draw lines everywhere. It's what makes people think I'm Mister Difficult. For example, people in the ATM machine line up who stand too far away from the dispenser forfeit their right to be next in line. You know the people I mean-the ones who stay fifty feet away so they don't look like they're trying to see your PIN number. Come on. I look at these people, and I think, Man, you must feel truly guilty about something to make you broadcast your sense of guilt to the world with your freakish lineup philosophy. And so I simply stand in front of them and go next. That teaches them.

  What else? I also believe that if someone comes up behind you on the freeway and flashes their lights to get you to move into the slow lane, they deserve whatever punishment you dole out to them. I promptly slow down and drive at the same speed as the car beside me so that I can punish Speed Racer for his impertinence.

  Actually, it's not the impertinence I'm punishing him f01; it's that he let other people know what he wanted.

  Speed Racer, my friend, never ever let people know what you want. Because if you do, you might as well send them engraved invitations saying, "Hi, this is what I want you to prevent me from ever having. "

  Bitter.

  I am not bitter.

  And even if I was, at least if you're bitter you know where you stand.

  Okay, that last sentence came out wrong. Let me rephrase it: At least if you're bitter, you know that you're like everybody else.

  Strike that last effort, too. How about: At least if y
ou're bitter, you know that you're a part of the family of man. You know that you're not so hot, but you also know that your experience is universal. "Universal" is such a great word. You know that we live in a world of bitter cranks-a world of aging bitter cranks who failed and who are always thirty-two in their own heads.

  Failures.

  But bitterness doesn't always mean failure. Most rich people I've met are bitter too. So, as I say, it's universal. Rejoice!

  I was once young and fresh and dumb, and I was going to write a novel. It was going to be called Glove Pond. What a name-Glove Pond. I don't remember the inspiration, but the words have always sounded to me like the title of a novel or movie from England-like Under Milk Wood, by Dylan Thomas-or a play written by someone like Tennessee Williams. Glove Pond was to be populated with characters like Elizabeth Taylor and Richard Burton, movie stars from two generations ago, with killer drinking problems, teeter-tottering sexuality and soft, unsculpted bodies-from back before audiences figured out that muscle tone, not a press release, determines sexiness. 'Glove Pond's main characters screamed and brawled and shrieked witty, catty, vicious things at each other. They drank like fish, screwed like minks and then caught each other in the act of screwing strangers like minks. At that point, they'd say even wittier things than before. They were wit machines. In the end, all the characters were crazy and humanity was doomed. The End.

  I just googled "Glove Pond" and here's what I got:

  www.amateurmicroscopy.net ... Index to Articles

  ... Part 1: Introduction and Webcam Modifications. If

  ever a subject and a method of recording that subject fit

  together like a hand in a glove, pond "micro-critters"

  and videomicrography are an ideal fit.

  Look at this: no one has ever put the two words together before-a comma in between "glove" and "pond" doesn't count as a true connection. So I still get dibs on Glove Pond!

  Bethany

  I'm the dead girl whose locker you spat on somewhere between recess and lunch.

  I'm not really dead, but I dress like I want to be. There's something generic about girls like me: we hate the sun, we wear black, and we feel trapped inside our bodies like a nylon fur mascot at a football game. I wish I were dead most of the time. I can't believe the meat I got stuck with, and where I got stuck and with whom. I wish I were a ghost.

  And FYI, I'm not in school any more, but the spitting thing was real: a little moment that sums up life. I work in a Staples. I'm in charge of restocking aisles 2-North and 2South: Sheet Protectors, Indexes & Dividers, Notebooks, Post-It Products, Paper Pads, Specialty Papers and "Social Stationery." Do I hate this job? Are you nuts? Of course I hate it. How could you not hate it? Everyone who works with me is either already damaged or else they're embryos waiting to be damaged, fresh out of school and slow as a 1999 modem. Just because you've been born and made it through high school doesn't mean society can't still abort you. Wake up.

  Let me try to say something positive here. For balance.

  Staples allows me to wear black lipstick to work.

  I was waiting for the bus this morning, and there was a sparrow sitting in the azalea beside the bus shelter. I looked at it and it yawned ... this tiny little wisp of heated sparrow yawn breath rose up from the branch. And the thing is, I began yawning too-so yawning is contagious not only from person to person, but from species to species. How far back was it that our primordial ancestors forked into two directions, one that became mammals and one that became birds? Five hundred million years ago? So we've been yawning on earth for half a billion years.

  Speaking of biology, I think cloning is great. I don't understand why churchy people get so upset about it. God made the originals, and cloning is only making photocopies. Big woo. And how can people get upset about evolution? Someone had to start the ball rolling; it's only natural to try to figure out the mechanics of how it got rolling. Relax! One theory doesn't exclude the other.

  Yesterday this guy from work, Roger, said it was weird that we human beings, who've evolved way more than anything else on earth, still have to share the place with all the creatures that remain unevolved, like bacteria and lizards and bugs. Roger said human beings should have a special roped-off VIP section for people only. I got so mad at him for being such an ignorant shit. I told him that roped-off VIP areas do, in fact, exist, and they're called parking lots-if Roger wanted to be such an environmental pig about things, he should go stand in the parking lot for a few days and see how much fun that is.

  Calm down, Bethany. Look out the window.

  I'm looking out the window. I'm going to focus on nature. Looking at plants and birds cools my brain.

  It's late afternoon right now, and the crows, a hundred thousand of them from everywhere in the city, are all flying to roost for the night in their mega-roost, an alder forest out on the highway in Burnaby. They go there every night, and I don't know why. They're party animals, I suppose. Crows are smart. Ravens are smarter. Have you ever seen a raven? They're like people, they're so smart. I was fourteen and collecting seashells up the coast one afternoon, and a pair of ravens landed on a log beside me and followed me around the beach, hopping from log to log. They were talking to each other-I mean chatter-chatter talking-and they were obviously discussing me. Ever since then, I've firmly believed that intelligent life exists everywhere in the universe; in fact, the universe is designed specifically to foster life wherever and whenever possible.

  I also think that if ravens lived to seventy-two instead of seven, they'd have conquered the planet millions of years ago. They're that smart. Raven intelligence evolved differently than human intelligence, but it still reached a human place. Aliens may well think and behave like ravens or crows.

  And a final thing about crows-I had no idea I'd be going on like this-is that they look black to us, but to birds, they're as insanely coloured as parakeets and peacocks - human colour perception is missing a small patch of the spectrum that only birds can see. Imagine if we could see the world like birds, even briefly. Everything would be wondrous. Which is another reason why I only wear black. Who knows what you're missing when you look at me.

  it’s five minutes later.

  My mother called and asked if I would consider going with her to visit the Hubble Telescope in California. I thought the Hubble was in outer space, but it turns out it has a twin, in Yreka, in northern California.

  My mother said people who didn't believe in anything had visited the telescope and it had made them proud to be alive. She said that, instead of the stars being these mean, cold, bleak little jabs of white light, the universe was like a vast, well-maintained aquarium. The stars weren't points of light, but angel fish and jellyfish and sea horses and anemones. And I thought about it, and damn the woman, she's right.

  I told her that people always treat me like an alien; I've always expected to be treated as such, and it's not a very glamorous sensation.

  This, naturally, sparked a fight with Mom. Why can't I try to fit in?

  If I'm still wearing black lipstick at twenty-four, she ought to have abandoned hope of my ever normalizing.

  After we hung up, I thought, what if she'd died right there on the spot, right at the end of that phone call. The last thing she ever would have said to me would have been, Imagine, Bethany, the universe is indeed a beautiful place. If you doubt me, go check for yourself

  Roger

  Sorrow!

  Sorrow is everywhere-a bruise that never yellows and never fades, a weed that chokes the crop. Sorrow is every old person who ever died alone in a small, shitty room. Sorrow is alive in the streets and in the shopping malls. Sorrow in space stations and theme parks. In cyberspace; in the Rocky Mountains; in the Mariana Trench. All this

  sorrow.

  And here I am in the cemetery eating my lunch: baloney on Wonder Bread, too much yellow mustard, no lettuce or tomato, an apple and a beer. I believe that the dead speak to us, but I don't think they do it with words. They u
se the materials they have at hand-a gust of ail~ a gold ripple on an otherwise still lake, or inside a dozing stem some sap is tickled and a flower blooms that would never have opened otherwise.

  The sky rains and the world shines, tombstones like rhinestones, the grass like glass. There is a breeze.

  Joan tried to be so matter-of-fact about it all when she got the news: cancer of the spleen. What the hell is a spleen?

  A spleen is a cartoon body part, not something a real person has, let alone something that gets sick and kills.

  Joan tried to tell me that everybody who's ever lived has had cancer lots of times-even a fetus gets cancer - except our bodies almost always get rid of it before it spreads. Cancer is what we call those bits our bodies fail to slough off. I found some comfort in that. It made cancer feel everyday and approachable. Universal. I wanted to reach inside Joan and pluck out the cancer-and maybe while I was there I'd remove gold coins and keys and tropical birds-and I'd show you the surprises all of us conceal within.

  I think emotions affect your body as much as X-rays and vitamins and car crashes. And whatever it is I'm feeling right now, well, God only knows what parts of my body are being demolished. And I deserve it. Because I'm not a good person-because I'm a bad person who also happens to be lost.